Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Dor's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
10:14 am	YESS. I've got to say. I'm not a patient person. That's why I've never really dieted. That's why I don't go to the gym for more than like, two weeks in a row. I don't like to invest time into something that doesn't IMMEDIATELY show results. I KNOW that when you're losing weight, you stop losing for a while. I was not prepared for four weeks of nothing. But I made myself not get pissy. I didn't get pissy about it once! Not at all! Scale did not move more than a half a pound for a solid month. No, that's a lie, it went up a pound. It would have been so "me" to be like "Fuck this, I'm going to go eat a pizza." But for some reason I was like "nah, let's try this patience thing." I believe I am finished with the month of BULLSHIT and I'm quite pleased that I am losing weight again! I had a goal of losing 30 pouds total by the time I went home to Minnesota. I was struggling to not be disappointed that wouldn't be happening. It seemed so realistic since I lost 20 in two months, why not 30 in three? But no. Now yes! The thing I'm most pleased about is not that I am finally losing weight again, but was that I remained reasonable about it for four weeks. I accepted the fact that it's SUPPOSED to stop for a while. That's how it goes. Whee!! Now, the huuuuuge challenge will be to survive five days of being around my mother. Plateaus were historically the #2 thing that killed my "dieting." My mother holds the #1 spot. There's just something about her saying "ooh I cannot wait until you're a size six and I can buy you a whole new wardrdobe!" One would think that would motivate me, but it just doesn't. Usually it's because she's saying that while she's shoving free naughty food down my throat. Banana chocoloate chip muffins. Cookies. Home-cooked goodness. The queen of contradictions, that one. I've told her this time, though, no. No baking. She understands. And I'm going to put up a mommy shield the whole time I'm home. LA LA LA I CAN'T HEAR YOU! Heh. It will work! If I can survive a four week long dry spell and not cheat or anything at all, then I can handle five days of my mother. Right? Right. Tylendel left a comment a previous entry. I had to delete the entry because I had meant to make it private, but I do want to reply to the comment. I will do so in the next day or so! Off I go to work. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 12th, 2004
3:17 am	Oh.. One more thing. I added a few friends. This shit is *SO* going to be friends only. If you can read this, then it's either because I think you know a thing or two about weight loss, or because I consider you to be a close friend and doubt you'd be freaked out if read a whole bunch of REALLY personal shit about me. Or both. And I definitely did leave off a few people who ARE close friends. Maybe I'll add them later. Dunno. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:04 am	My name is Dor and I am TOO FAT! Hi guys -- this is my (not so secret) LJ for LOSING WEIGHT! I don't know if writing about it is going to help or hurt. Last time I was writing here about losing weight, I quit the diet and exercise. But I think that had less to do with chronicling it and more to do with the fact that I was a lazy failure. Hah! Anyways, I've lost 25 pounds since February 5th which is when I started eating fewer carbohydrates. It's been the easiest thing in the world. I hardly feel I've accomplished anything because really, It hasn't been difficult in the slightest. I love cheese and beef and chicken. I'm even starting to talk myself into trying to like fish. The challenge will be exercising, which I really want to start doing. I've done my pilates DVD two days in a row. I don't know about doing it tomorrow morning because 1) it's already 3 am and I must get up at 9 and 2) don't they say you should only do weights every other day? Anyone know? I'm going to have a banana tomorrow. It has carbs in it. I need to convince myself that this will be fine. Fruit is important. I love bananas. It won't make me gain 50 pounds. It won't make me gain any pounds. It will make me happy. It'll be yummy. Ahhh I'm sick in the head! Oh lord, Dor. So smart to start back up with your online weight-loss journal just one day before you give up the computer for a week. NER! So anyways, here's the facts. I weighed 255 pounds (yeah, I know) as of February 5th. I'm now at 230. Still too many! My goal is 225 by May 1st. My goal is 170 by January 2005. Doable? That will be 80 pounds total. A lot to lose in less than a year. Possible though, I suppose. Especially if I can get off my shrinking ass and do some fucking exercise. So, welcome to my little webspace of craziness. (2 Comments |Comment on this)